Open Heart-
By Sylvia Lei 12/10/08
She felt a little broken
Her loud confidence beat into submission
Her bright character now more quietly spoken
The inner pieces of her left a little more open
Her head held high but her gaze low
Hands hesitant behind her back
For fear of what she lacks to show
She knows she was created to be great
But she finds herself in a perplexing sort of state
And she questions her fate…
The wind spoke words of peace
Demanded the insecurities cease
Hold your head high
Loose the tears in your eye
And find the place with in- and never let it by
Know that you are great
Unburden yourself from the weight
I suppose she began to understand
Through the gentle wind’s reprimand
Thanking the wind for the hand
As she stepped up
As she drank from the cup
She was lost for far too long
Lost without the melodies flow
Lost her inner song
Because it had been far too long
Since she was told she was anything more than just wrong
She was never chosen first
But always last
Scarred fragments of the past
And somewhere along the way- she stopped running in the race
She slowed her pace
And she lowered her face
She no longer felt of inner beauty and grace
Hardened- cold
She felt weary and old
But rejuvenated she became as the surgeon preformed open heart
Healing but first taking it all apart
Gently clearing out the scarred tissue
So when he was complete her soul could function with out issue
And he placed her into the recovery room
And promised all would be well and she would be able to return home soon
Tears in her eye
She can feel her recovering heart cry
Because the wind embraced her
And whispered gently her questions answer
And slowly she began to understand why.
Taken
11-19-2008
You
took it from me
How
stupid am I
You
said you would
But
I doubted you could
You
took advantage of a situation and a place
And
I shudder now as I recall your face
I
hate him
But
I don’t wanna
For
he pried into it
Not
to help
But
to satisfy
His
only selfish greedy urge
I
hate him for he caused me to remember
And
he showed no pity
He
showed no care
The
tenderness in his heart is vacant- it is not there
You
disgust me
And
I pity you
I
pity him
I
pity them
But
what’s stolen will not bring peace
Your
inner storms surely will not cease
What
you took you will return
Or
pay your penance and in eternity burn
Taking me back
Here she sits silent and
cold
Here she sits broken and
old
No no
I can’t be her
No no
It’s time for change
It’s time
She cried for far too long
and they didn’t hear her cries
Here she sat with her butterfly
dreams
And then she grew up and
saw nothing was as it seems
So she moved on
And she kept it moving
Because she felt if she sat
still she’d come loose at the seams
They took away her dignity
They took away her pride
And when she took a moment
to self reflect
She realized she was empty
inside
No where to go and turn
Oh it hurts to know that
there is nothing there
But empty darkness
And she drowned in self pity, dined on the despair
And swallowed the 24 pills
Because in that simple instant reality had become too real
And she had lost all care
But he cared
He cared enough to spare her life
He cared enough to give her back her soul
His one request
That she open her eyes and take back control
Her eyes open
She realize her despair had been too soon spoken
It was time to love again
And leave her heart open for the beauty of life
Was meant to be shared
And the fact that her life had been spared
Meant that the utmost cared
Blessings missed in the midst
She realized that was there
A
beauty in life so rare
Tea Leaves
12/08/08
You caught me off guard
Unexpected
Your taste so delicate and sweet
But made up of such amazing and complex flavors
That my tongue could hardly comprehend
You were the manifestation of everything I never dreamed of putting into words
The aroma of your spirit so intoxicating
Invigorating
A pleasurable wake up
A gentle challenge
So full
It leaves me lingering wanting for another taste
But so rich I am afraid to swallow
I am afraid to even drink from the cup
Satisfied to just inhale the aroma
Inspiring me to be something more
Awaking the dreams that have fallen asleep far too long ago
Suddenly I find myself hungry
Wanting to absorb it all
Taste every single leaf
Appreciate each intricate design
Savor every drop
Letting none fall to waste
I find myself hovering near the brim of the cup
Shying away from the heat
But wanting just a little taste….
Silent Prayer
Like a soft melody
The essence of you still lives within
And at any moment it seems
By heart catches a glimpse of your fragrance
And I feel the flutter stir with in my soul
And the bittersweet tears that catch the rim of my eye
Caught by the sigh with in
So much I still feel
So much I still wanted to give
And though time has stopped for us
You’re eternal in my
heart
If only I could hold you
close
If only I could have known
I would have held you as
you silently whispered good-bye
I would have sheltered you
from the storm as you were guided into that eternal place
But….
I didn’t know…..
What I wouldn’t give
to hold you in my arms
And stare into your beautiful
brown eyes just once more
Kiss your soft cheek
And bury my face in your
neck to catch the essence of you
To have just one more moment
To see your smile if even
for a second
For but just a second…